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Is it mid june already? June 16, 2009

Posted by Patrick in Life, School, Work.
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So after reading Mindy’s latest post about bloggers fading away, I decided it was time for me to start writing again. I’ve been quite recently, because I feel like I’m just in a funk. In a funk is, probably a nice way of saying “almost depressed”. And I hate the idea of blogging while in a bad mood, it’s worse than drinking.

So why the funk? Well things were good for awhile, I was really busy with work. So I found myself a little too tired after work to write. That’s cool though, everyone has busy times. Now I made some money, and bought myself an iPod Touch which I was really excited about. Then work began to slow down. Instead of my brother having me work for him 30 hrs a week, it drooped to 10, then pretty much none.  So for the last few weeks, I’ve been at home way to much. It’s quite boring, and so I’ve been jumping at the opportunity to go out once in awhile. Then going out leads to spending money, money that I didn’t have coming in anymore. So now I’m very broke, with an insurance payment due yesterday, and I need to put $100 deposit down for eric’s bachelor party.

In other parts of my life, I really need to get out some last minute transfer applications to schools. They’re already late, but after not being accepted last year, the fear of rejection again is holding me back. I just need to sit down and drink a few beers and fill out the forms I need to online.

So what’s left? Money = fail, school = not so hot, girls = ? Lol, this is always a fun topic. I’m single, by choice you might say, but more like a narcissistic choice. Because I’m so uncertain of where I’ll be in the fall, I don’t want to find myself attached to someone in Scranton, just to move 1-4 hours away in August. And on top of that, I’m just not happy with where I am in life. I’m 25 now, and still trying to find a way to pay for and get through undergrad. At 25 most people are looking for someone who has their life setup by now, not someone who’s as far through college as a 20 year old normally is.

So I try and take solace in the fact that someday soon eventually I’ll be finished with school, and on the same professional level as people I might be interested in. Of course who’ll be left in the dating pool by then? Are there a lot of single 28 yr old girls who haven’t had a few kids yet? Alright, enough with pessimistic speculation. This post was already way to somber for me.

So any advice for me? I just need to shake this mood off, and haven’t been able to.

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1. amindinmotown - June 16, 2009

Firstly, you met Gerry, right? His life isn’t exactly settled and he’ll be 27. But I love him just the same anyway. So stop the pity party mister!! Clearly there’s nothing to be worried about. If someone wants to be with you, she’ll take the whole package regardless of the school situation.

Everyone gets in a funk sometimes. But you have to be willing to do something about it and get yourself out. It’s possible, but you have to make the effort to get anywhere else.

Patrick - June 16, 2009

Gerry treats people like their single use paper products. Aka, napkins. (The man kind though, lol) And it wasn’t intended on being a pity party, but sometimes if I just sit down and write it all out, then I don’t let it just fester and bother me.

I know, but now that my problems are out there, then any little victories I accomplish can be shared and possibly understood by others.

amindinmotown - June 17, 2009

It makes sense why you’d think that though. I often wonder why any guy would seriously be willing to marry a woman – i.e. me – who will NEVER make much money. I know I’ll never be the breadwinner if I stick to journalism, but this is something I love, so it’s something I’m okay with. But will a guy be okay with that? With me perhaps not truly pulling my share of the household? Who knows.

And let’s stop ragging on Gerry, ha. He must’ve liked you just a little to use you as a napkin. =P You are more than welcome to use him as such, or as a paper towel if you choose (but not as TP, that’s gross), next time you visit.

2. Katie - June 16, 2009

Glad to see you writing again. I find writing is therapeutic when upset. It makes you human. It’s not nearly as bad as drinking, jerk. Haha.

Seems like you’re just trying to get your life in order – and want to make sure your life has direction. Don’t beat yourself up for being where you are. You are much further than a lot of people are and even more importantly you have your head on straight, which is more than can be said for most of the world.

Any girl would be lucky to have you as even a friend, and very lucky as anything beyond that. (Can you believe I just complimented you? I know, me either) – Unfortunately as much as we want to know what’s going to happen and when its going to happen, the truth is, we don’t. When you’re ready, it will come. If it’s not coming, you’re not ready. I can tell you that I’d be completely content with a guy just like you simply based on what I know of you.

You’re going to have low points or else it wouldn’t be life. Always remember, the harder you fall, the higher you bounce. Try and stay in the moment – realize that its usually not as bad as you think, but its still okay to feel upset, sad and depressed. Its easy for happy people to have all kinds of solutions to how to feel better. There is no universal solution. It ends up being what works for you. Sometimes its something as simple as sitting with the feeling and letting it pass. Trying to ignore it or set it to the side won’t help. Address it. Address it. Address it.

If you ever need to have an “I NEED TO VENT!” moment, you can do so guilt free with me if you care to. If you don’t want to go public.(well, now you have, so maybe it’ll be easier in the future)

You hit the nail on the head though – now that your problems are out there for others to relate to and understand you won’t feel so alone.

(See, I’m not all raunch and sass)

3. Katie - June 16, 2009

I seriously think my response was longer than your blog.

THIS IS HOW MUCH I CARE!!

Just saying.

4. whattakes - June 17, 2009

My sister is 25m and single, without a kid. Or another over a high school education. I can set you up? I’m joking (maybe) but we’re 2 hours away and a border crossing in between. I stayed single all though college because I didn’t want to be tired down. I still feel that way. I have no idea where my life is going to take me, so I don’t want to meet anyone. But things happen, and life plans change.

Get those college papers done! And do mine too!! I mean it!!!

Katie covered most of the things I was thinking, so just reread her’s comment twice. I can’t figure out how to get gchat on my ipod, so if you tell me how, I’ll be always! Plus it’s open at work.

I have a notebook at home that I vent in. It helps get stuff out. Writing is good for the soul.

5. Delilah - June 19, 2009

I’m just relieved you didn’t post another ipod touch blog. I hate that thing but I like you so I will keep on reading whatever spews out of your brain onto this blog.

Anyway, the important thing here is that I am extremely attracted to your blogability and and whatnot so I say transfer to Seattle and we can make beautiful things happen.

6. MJ - June 22, 2009

I think you’re smart to get your life in order before jumping into a relationship. And YES! There are plenty of women in their late 20s who have not yet tied the knot and have managed to keep from getting knocked up.

Don’t let fear of rejection keep you from filing your transfer applications. If you let fear rule your life, you’ll never succeed. 🙂

7. The Engineer - August 18, 2009

I am dying laughing. I wasn’t at first. I was kinda mad when I went to search and see how my blog was ranking and there you are at the top with my freaking blog name! WTH…

I was fuming as I started to read, and then, lo and behold! You are a freaking hilarious engineer who knows how to write, that is an anomaly! I would know, I am a civil engineer by schooling and I have struggled with writing my whole life. So why start a blog you say? My husband is all computer geeky and told me that writing would be good for my anxiety. Well, the anxiety won and I can’t get past it enough to figure out what the frik to write.

Anyway, I wanted to comment on this blog in particular so that you can have some solace in my story. I finally graduated with my civil engineering degree after 12 years of undergrad, 30 extra credits and 4 changes of my major. I was 28 when I graduated and didn’t have kids yet. I then had a kid at 29 and that relationship didn’t work out. When I met my husband (after I had my first kid), I was the breadwinner, and his career (although he had a degree) had not taken off yet. I supported him through that first year and he is soaring now and I am not even in the field of engineering anymore.

I keep telling myself I will go back, but who knows. I have a family now and my priorities have changed. You have no idea what will come along to change you. Maybe you will meet a girl whom you deem more important than transferring to a particular school. For all your friends out there reading this thinking I am horrible for even saying that, my point is you have no idea what the future holds.

Also, from my experiences, let me just say that what school you go to and your GPA may not hold as much weight as people would like to make you think. My husband and I both had less than 3.0 GPAs and he makes 6 figures a year now and when I first left school, I worked for one of the only civil engineering companies ever to make the Fortune 100 list, CH2MHILL.

Enjoy your life and stop feeling the lonely thing. It sucks, I know, been there done that. But that negative feeling penetrates beyond you and females pick up on that. Ain’t no girl out there gonna be attracted to the ‘lonely’ guy. No girl can say it for sure if they can even pick out the lonely guy, but I believe in energy theories even beyond those you wrote in you global warming post. I believe that people have attractive energy. Not the good looking stuff, but the thing that produces a gravitational pull on another body. If your energy is good and positive, you will do a lot more attracting.

Anyway, I would love to discuss a lot more geeky stuff with you, considering we came up with the same website name.

I also really liked your lunch post about your niece. I have a 4 yr old and a 2 yr old, both boys and they are both so particular about stuff. I literally laughed out loud when I read that post. I could totally visualize the whole pizza thing.


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